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I decided to start blogging to explore why I am not living life as deeply and fully as I would like to. I saw some girls skipping and laughing today, and I thought “Where did that girl go? I miss her!”

My husband’s affair a few years ago devastated me and caused me to question everything I thought I knew about him, myself, and my world. So now I am trying to look at the world with new eyes – to deconstruct my life with conscious intention and decide how I want to live my life moving forward.

“We tend to identify with and become attached to things we have, and to fear their loss, and this includes our knowledge and beliefs as well as relationships and physical things. That’s part of the survival game, but we do well to accept impermanence with equanimity and to retain an open mind, willing to review and evolve.”

I saw this somewhere recently. Wish I could remember where I saw it so I could attribute it appropriately. This is where I find myself today, trying to make sense of what has happened, opening my heart and mind to figure out where I go from here. In other words, to take advantage of the fact that my heart was broken completely open and to use the opportunity, as unwelcome as it was, to take stock of my life, to change what needs to be changed, and to live and love with all my might, with no regrets.

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    • Thanks, hiddinsight – great suggestion. I have heard that her writing and work is very powerful. I will definitely check her out on YouTube. Thanks for checking out my blog too – you are the first one to comment on my new blog – WOOHOO!!

      I LOVE your blog, BTW – your perspectives have helped me better understand how the unthinkable could have happened, and how we can move forward with love and acceptance. Like you, he is now telling me how he feels, even when it is not what he thinks I want to hear. I treasure that, and it is helping me regain trust.

      • So great to hear…and I’m SO HAPPY to be the first commenter!! (I wonder what that says about me? Ha.) The first time someone brought up Brene’s name to me, I looked at her stuff, but I don’t think the timing was right. Plus, I’m a bit of a skeptic, and usually wait for repeated mentions of anything to become more intrigued. But, as of this week, I cannot get enough. Call it right timing, the right message, or inspired by God…but it is provoking me to understand myself in ways that make me realize that I’m NOT THE ONLY ONE.

        I hate that I can help you understand. But I love it too. I guess I can’t take back that it’s part of my journey, so I might as well embrace it. Thank you for your comments and for allowing me to shed a tiny bit of life on a horrific situation.

        Communication and trust come naturally when we learn how to be vulnerable. And there I am…back to Brene again…sigh.

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